40 is Fine

“40 is fine when you look 29.”

40th birthday

Ill be turning the big 4 0 this week. This Sunday to be exact. June 5th. A Sunday my favorite day of the week.

But unlike a TV show, there will be no gathering of friends and family to celebrate me. No surprise cake and singing, no tears of joy at the overwhelming show of affection for me.

My own husband wont even remember. I’m sure, or maybe he will but he sure as hell wont do a thing to show me. He hasn’t in years, a lacking small gesture that cuts me deep every year. I mean really is a small cake so hard to get for your wife?

And friends, well I have none. Everyone, I’ve ever let into my life has used and abused this thing called friendship. And I have locked out all of them and vowed not to bring anyone new it to replace them. People just disappoint and hurt you and I’ve finally reached a point in my life where I don’t and wont allow it. Now, none of the people I do call “Friend” are so close they’d think to pop in with a cake. And the 2 people I do have that I call friends that might do this work hard all day on Sundays to support themselves, and their children and couldn’t even if they wanted to.

Family, well again none that would do a thing to celebrate me, betting my own mother doesn’t even remember its her first born child’s 40th birthday. No, she’ll probably roll out of bed at 1 pm and make sure see feeds her animals on Farmville though. My husbands family well they might remember but not liking or knowing me enough to know this 1 year Id rather not share my birthday with anyone else (my husband and mother in-laws b-days are days after mine and we always get jammed together) and definitely not in a hot way over crowded house where half the people there don’t even like me. No Id rather just stay home and fold laundry and dwell in my own self pity.

I don’t think its wrong to want this day, this one year to be just mine, to have my favorite cake, to be surprised and celebrated.

But hell like I said my life is not a tv show, No cards in the mail, no balloons or cake just like every other year. Other than the half hearted, Facebook happy birthdays from the hand full of people I’m actually friends with on Facebook, only remembering because Facebook reminded them. I don’t expect anything else.

It makes me sad. Not because no one remembered or because no one did anything but more because I wanted it.

In the end, its not important. I don’t really get over it but I do get past it. In the end 40 is just a number, its just another year I made it through.

In the end 40 is just fine, after all I really do only look 29.

Springing into something new

I have always had a love for candles. Who doesn’t?

And I have, for some time now, wanted to offer them in my Etsy store. I had hopes last year when I began to work with a candle maker and sell in her shop in Smithville that I could finally expand to carry them. But as things sometimes do it didn’t work out.

But, now…. Now, I have taken a workshop and researched and read and watched and learned all I can to begin this venture on my own. I’m giddy with excitement as the first few I’ve done came out flawlessly. Friends and family bought up nearly all I had in my first round.

( I have, of course, made dozens of candles in mason jars as well)

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50 pounds of soy wax at my doorstep (I do believe the UPS guy fully dislikes me now),

along with the 8oz tins, and cotton wicks I’ve choose to use (shipping with these seems like the best 1st step).

https://www.etsy.com/shop/JerseyGypsyEtsyShop?section_id=18678044&ref=shopsection_leftnav_9

I hope to reach and begin to work with brides and create these as favors for their weddings, bridesmaids for showers, and so to be mommies baby showers. I have packages outlined on my Facebook page already as I have had several messages about candles as favors and will be getting samples and package prices listed on Etsy asap. These are truly the perfect thing every bit of it is customizable from the color and scent to label and saying on it. Such a fun process to work with someone and create something that is just them.

The possibility is endless with these and I just love the work, birthdays, and anniversaries, teacher gifts, and Mother days, house warming, or just a quik lil thank you to that someone who is always there for you candles are always a perfect choice.

But even if you just want a great candle for your home or need a great gift at a great price, we can create a label just for you and any scent (just about) you can think of we can do as well as color.

https://www.etsy.com/shop/JerseyGypsyEtsyShop?ref=hdr_shop_menu

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Regards!